Wednesday, August 29, 2007

didnt have a proper digestion

Free will...the eternal humanity...the power which is uncorrupted even by GOD and lucifer...feared and admired by both...in this world of ours..where average concentration span equals to that of the length of an avergae ad-film...the question that kind of peep behind the curtain..is "how free is free will?"...isnt that oxymoronic...isnt it blasphemy to doubt the highest of the human virtues...blasphemy....i do not understand religion...i am unaware of sin...the word "morality" baffles me..i cannot distinguish between anything...what if there isnt any free will.... lately i have been on Trafalmadore...an exquisite place...a "hellish heaven"..and i was told..."only on Earth is there any talk of free will." we know what we think we know..or even what is expected of us to know..where "room at the top..with a view" isnt high enough...may be its a room with a glossy cocktail bar...yet events of past,present and future remain together..."peaceful coexistence"...have we ever really exercised any choice in our lifetime..or even when we think we have exercised any choice....may be we havent really taken any choice..we as indiviuals are just programmed to behave in that specific way in that specific temperature and pressure..keeping other physical factors as normal...so goes the laws...arent laws capable of magical vaults...what if life is a fixed reality show..what if an elaborate software program...what if its just a sleepwalk...doesnt they hint of terminating the running program..to have a look at the restart option...keeping the cookies and the files at place..what if..... what if..u can exercise your options only once...what is life without a second chance..undoing your choices...isnt that the purpose of choice...what about mortality....is the death of the bubbles in champagne has got similar cosmic effects as the death of your beloved...so it goes...what difference it makes...what difference it makes now..what difference it makes an year after...u know..life has to go on...but..where...where does it go..where did it go after belson... what does it say..see but dont peep..go around the edge..but dont get in..is it worth..or affordable..they are celebrating a 50% sale..doesnt that make a great deal...the temptation of the great people are the stuff..legends are made up of...yet noone playing that song...i wish to listen to that ...the strain which i used to know..yet it seems to me..so near..yet so far..i should be gone...only if i knew....

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

closely monitoring the situation...................

A deep sigh...a traumatic feeling of utter helplessness that numb my senses...a lamentable and tragic loss of our own fellow people...an unending cry for help goes through the air....and then the oracle comes "...closely monitoring the situation"...
Sets of vivid flashes up in front of us...a regular joe comes up in tv..who says "he could only help 5 people...because he was transferring the helpless..in his bike..and could only help one at a time...." the sense of helplessness...the sight of gory...where death and tragedy isnot a fight over numbers..whether its 100 or 150...
but then again the common man is at fault..like most of the time..just like all other times..."heartfelt solidarity" ..and "free cremation" are the stuff which is in store for him..u just bet he feels himself lucky to get those sops in this era of fierce market oriented world...where nothing is free..but may be u can get a deal of one thing free when u purchase the other stuff....
As a common man in my beloved motherland... where our age old wisdom which has imbibed a sense of karma and stocisim...and yes reincarnation..which transforms death into a journey of a sort...( that does make things a hell lot better..afterall who doesnt love a good journey)...but the tears..they just dont stop rolling...(u..silly tears..the situation is being closely monitered u know)......its just a anamoly that after 13 years of a similar incident ..noone isnt convicted by our court of law..but then we lowly placed mortal beings shouldnt even think of worldly justice..whts the value of it..arent we as a nation always believed in divine intervention and karmic sufferings...
A city remains awake whole night,waiting for its bread earners to retun home...the city comes down to street helping ...sharing the tragedy and grief...bringing their kith and kin back ...some from the mortuary.